Jeg blir så rasende på verden.Rasende over urettferdighet som fins ute.Rasende på den indre angsten og depresjonen som drar meg mer og mer ned og holder meg hardt fast så jeg ikke får puste.Jeg er så rasende at andres liv bare går videre mens ens eget har stoppet opp.Jeg er så rasende at alt har stoppet opp.Jeg er så rasende over tap jeg opplevde.Jeg er rasende over at noen mennesker ikke får behandling fordi den er for dyr mens når corona kom da har man plutselig råd til alt.Hvordan noen ganger virker det som at enkelte liv måles i penger og det gjør den og.Jeg er rasende fordi enkelte har skuffet meg men det er vel bare å se ekte ansiktet til menneske.Jeg er rasende over tap og urettferdighet og mens jeg blir holdt fast av depresjon som spiser meg opp mer og mer og alt føles då tomt.Det er tomt og rasende samtidig.Jeg blir rasende over at man ikke alltid får sagt alt man vil heller når man tror på sjel og skjebne fordi ikke absolutt alle tror og hvis de ikke tror så må det absolutt bety som om det ikke fins noe.Jeg blir rasende fordi enkelte skal bestemme hva de mener selv er greit selv om mange faktisk tror på mye av det samme.Jeg blir rasende på sjenerelt mennesker som alltid tror de er allvitende men som ikke har peiling.Noen ganger blir jeg extra rasende fordi noen mennesker som går gjennom livet med så mye motstand mens andre bare kommer seg gjennom ting.Jeg er rasende over at noen skal være lykkelige mens andre lider.Jeg er rasende over hva depresjonen hvordan den spiser en opp.Jeg er rasende av å se positive folk som ikke aner noe for de lever i sin positive boble helt til det treffer dem en dag så får de se hvor positive de selv er da.Jeg er rasende fordi jeg dissosierer og er splittet fordi det er slitsomt i seg selv.Jeg er rasende over at noens skjebne er å sulte i verden.Barn som ikke har mat.Jeg er rasende over allvitende mennesker som tror de alltid har svaret.Kanskje fordi jeg har sett mye skuffelse i det siste.Jeg er rasende av å leve med angst i mange år og dissosiasjon som er vanskelig å forstå.Jeg er rasende over skjebner.Jeg er rasende over mennesker.Mennesker er egoistiske og ser bare seg selv og det ligger i menneskeheten å se seg selv først og fremst.Er jo ikke rart egentlig kanskje er de verste de som ikke vil innrømme det.Vel er du rasende på verden og mennesker og alt mellom himmel og jord er det bare å skrive.

Amen, mrs Freak.

Jepp dere skjønner nok raseriet.Bare skriv dere.klem Tristtrist.Tardetsommanhardet ser du er enig her.

Blownwinds you are not bothering anyone.The world is cold.People dont care like they used to maybe it was different in old days.I am sorry for what you have been through.People can be evil and terrible.There is no justice in world.Beeing bitter is worst because its like poison for mind but its easy to be bitter but hard not to bee.Its not something anyone choose but it just hits like bitterness.

And i just gave you another name it was supposed to be blownminds hehe and I wrote Blownwinds.Sorry for that.

hei blownminds !
eg orker ikke å skrive engelsk men,
ja skjønner deg godt med noe av det du har sagt og det er godt å få det ut du plager ikke meg så betyr mye å lese det du sier for eg kjenner meg igjen.Da føler eg meg ikke så aleine så takk håper dere alle får ein flotte helg! :)

Well its ok with Blownminds too.hehe. its normal with bitter thoughts when depressed i Agree.Then its that prison i feel like trapped in prison.I am sleeping so much.But its like no matter how much sleeping its never enough.I dont have any energy thats difficult.Its so much Emptiness all the time.I see it everywhere.Do you understand Norwegian.Do you have a lot of family here or do they live somewhere else?

Aldrimer viktig å føle man ikke er alene selv om man som oftest føler seg alene,Også finner man ut at man likevel ikke er alene.Ønsker deg også en flott helg.

De er en byrde med alle de som ikke vil innrømme det. Og så har du nok mange som ikke ser det. Og de som ser og innrømmer er gjerne de som bare burde latt selvopptattheten blomstre. Isteden rakker de gjerne ned på seg selv

Så sant Tardetsommanhardet..Kanskje føler de seg som dårligere mennesker ved å innrømme det.Det er ikke lett for mennesker å innrømme slikt.El kanskje de ikke engang tenker over hvor selvsentrererte og egoistiske de er.De har altfor mye annet å tenke på.

Det kunne vært en egen tråd egentlig. Hvorfor det er så vanskelig for mennesker å innrømme eget ego. Da får vi vel et heidundrandes rabalder på sdmo igjen;)

Depression makes it feel like i Hole of Emptiness.Like there is nothing there but at the same time its to much there.I try to go small Walks because not going at all brings more trouble with legs.Its hard to see light around person just feel like falling down but i think its good when others dont feel alone.Its very important to see that i am not alone with this and others are not alone with things.We live in a cold world and its not easy to find people that understand and are there in bad Times,People are more often there in good times and disseaperes in bad times.Then you see the real person.I am talking generally now.You say you dont have a good times in Norway so you where born here? Why are your family speaking only english?I was like thinking maybe you havent leaved here long so thats why you speak english but its ok if you just want to write english.

There is no doubt that we are brainwashed in many things in life.Sometimes i think there is sp much things going around in world that is not supposed that we know.I think like we dont Even know why we are on earth.We have our thoughts and what we think and mean but knowhone knows why we are here.Walking small Walks is better than nothing.I also think that its differerent with woman when we are talking then men.Offen men keep more inside because they think that society wants it that way that men should be strong.But its better than it used to be.It was Worse before then we where not Even talking about this that men keep things inside.I think at least its the right way we are going now when we talk loud about men and how they struggle and keeping things inside.I understand you dont want to talk too much because its anonymt.I hope also with time that society will accept much more and understand men then it used to be and is like now.

Thanks girls, for concidering us men;) for me it was all about the women. Women wants strong men usually. Low self-esteem and self-hatred doesn't work well. Maybe vulnerability in other ways are fine, but more then once, was I told that "you have to clear up your depression and problems, then get a women". That's kind of hard with chronic conditions. But I managed to boost my confidence somehow. Now I'm handsome, cool, hot, smart and rich;) ok, rich is a pure lie

It would be nice to just like living.

The thing that is good Tardetsommanhardet that its better than it used to be.It is like typical what you wrote its like work with depression Get better and find a woman.Depression is cold and it doesnt Ask if you are men or woman.It just hits you.But Tardetsommanhardet its a long road but its much better now than it used to be before.So you men hope you Get the help you need and talk more.

Its nice talking to you.Its not nonsence.Its nice.Hehe i did give you another nickname first time.I dont believe in love forever but i think people that Booth struggle can understand eachother better.I believe more that Booth that struggle can stay together than if just one struggle and the other doesnt understand.Maybe it can go both ways.What do you think?

Some people can just go on nervs like they are taking so much energy.Do you feel like that Sometimes.You just Get so Angry.Angry ar everything.

I know what you mean but i think its different from man to man too.Its important for men to talk more about mental health.I think man cry but they hide so knowhone can see it or at theapists office.Its Nice to talk with you too.You are a nice person. I think in old times it was like like weakness for men too cry but now its better than it used to bee but still.If a man cry offten and people see they say easily oo he is so sensitive like its something bad.But we cant complain too much its better than it used too be and it will get better.It isnt a weakness when man or woman cry its better to have too many feelings than to bee psychopat.They dont cry so man better to cry too much.

i am a man
i was raised by my mother
she learned me not to cry
if i did i was beatened up
so at the end i did not
it destroyed something
inside of me i guess
maybe i do not know
how to love? how to care?
i am really not sure

I absolutely think that those cinderella -stories fills our brains with nonsense, yes. The biggest nonsense isn't that they can't happen. The biggest is that they hide an infidently cynical reality behind them. Also I don't think those princes and princesses of hollywood are known for only one cinderella story;)

I am sorry to Hear that Alien,about your story.Well its true Tardetsommanhardet about cinderrella storyes feeling our brain with nonsence,Offen it seems like crying hysteric,breakdowns thats like woman.While men are more Angry and dominant.Can fast Get Angry.Its like this is how woman are and this is men but still all people are different a woman can Get pretty Angry and a man can Get hysteric but thats the problem it can become weird because its like what society thinks that is ok and that is not ok.