Day by Day

Eyes are open
A new day
Stand up
You are awake

Gather some clothes
A towel
Take a shower
Shave

The mirror
A picture
That`s your painting
Try to calm down

Smile?
Hope, your eyes do not decieve
Happy
You are alive

The door
Traps you inside
If you let it
It`s not locked

Outside
Sun is shining
The noises
overencumber your mind

Breathing
Do you feel it?
Chest moving
Back and forth

Hands are shaking
Cool wind
Very sudden
You keep moving

Where?
When you`re there
It makes sense
Why you were scared

Forget everything
Take it all in
A new memory
Don`t have to think

Can i own it?
Petrified
Can`t move a muscle
Frozen to the ground

Going back home
Was told to leave
By my body
My mind agrees

In to my room
It`s a mess
Time to clean?
No energy

Loss of interest
Everything feels the same
Can`t trick myself
I am not ok

Ask for help?
Who do i tell?
My doctor listens
Gave me some pills

Take one
Sitting on my bead
Remember
I need to eat

Fall asleep
Shutting my eyes
Distracted by
A Beam of light

Am i better?
Do not know
Will i ever?
In time